Excerpt From a Letter You'll Never Read #3

It always seemed that you had struggled to express just how you were feeling.
Like there were thousands of ideas and words hidden behind your eyes but you were too afraid to share.

Sometimes I wonder if that's why you were unable to express whether or not you had cared for me.
Truly cared.

I don't think I want to know whether or not that is true.
I feel as though whether or not you cared more then you had been able to express, it would hurt to know either way.

If you weren't able to express it, would things be different now?
If you were able to express it and simply didn't care...why did you stay as long as you did?

Why did I stay as long as I did?

Excerpt From a Letter You'll Never Read #2

It’s scary to think that someone who meant so much to me didn’t have any idea who I really was. It terrifies me to think that maybe you thought I wanted you in my life only to “fix my problems.”

I’m honestly not even sure what problems I had that you thought you, or anyone, would be able to fix.

How could anyone fix a cancer diagnosis or a parents divorce?

All I wanted from you was happiness, some sort of distraction to pull me from what I had been going through.

Excerpt From a Letter You'll Never Read

That's when I realized you learn more about a person through their favorite books, songs and quotes then you ever could from their words. It's easy to be deceived by words, people's truths are told when you look at the things they love...the things they relate to.